Well, life is calming down a bit now that fall is upon us! I can't believe it's almost Halloween! Lots has happened! I had 3 weddings this past summer, and so far I have 3 booked, and 1 friends wedding for next summer! So far, so good! I'm enjoying it a LOT!
Wade and I have started a new journey! Not only have we bought a new house, but we bought a new vehicle! We've embarked on a fitness journey, we've been facing a lot of very difficult challenges in life, in regards to starting a family. Our journey to become fit has started with 6 workouts a week, not including volleyball, which we play once a week! Making 7 workouts a week, squats, push-ups, and abs! 30 day challenge, and we're also going to start making it harder and adding more and more to it! I'm also doing 3 extra workouts a week, one called "Short Total Pumper", it is off of the Pump Up app! I love the app, and I love the motivation it's providing! I'm mrspercy89, find me and add me!
It's never too late to start getting fit, eating healthier, and falling in love with working out and your new body! What are you waiting for? What's your excuse? What will make you develop the determination and commitment to change YOUR life and body?!?
Along with this news, I've also done some reflexology treatments. My first appointment was with a lady who has been doing reflexology for 45 years and did 3 years of official training! She was amazing, told me so many things about my body and my health. She believes that I don't have Crohn's Disease, but that I have been dealing with an almost clogged liver valve. She helped my body start detoxing, and boy did I detox....horribly! But, I have been feeling way better since I have finished all of my reflexology appointments, AND I have officially eaten spicy food and have had no side effects! Great, great news for me and my health!
Life has been good for us lately, Wade's really busy between work and weekend classes, and my wedding planning business, along with a part time job! We're happy people, enjoying our lives, and enjoying our relationship!
Thursday 23 October 2014
Tuesday 13 May 2014
All Of Me (Generosity & Reward)
Since I have slowly started up my own business, All Eternity Wedding Planning, I wanted to take a moment and share a few things regarding my business and regarding people I have recently helped.
In April, there was an apartment building fire, 25 minutes from my house. It was completely destroyed, over 30 people lost EVERYTHING they owned except for the clothes on their backs. When I heard about this fire, I was devastated for the families, the children, everyone. Losing items to a fire is difficult, I've been through that, but losing EVERYTHING you own, I couldn't begin to imagine how all of these families felt.
I was on a Wedding Buy/Sell site for my area, and saw that there was a bride and groom, who's wedding was just under 2 weeks away, from the day they lost everything in the fire. I had the pleasure of meeting with the couple, discussing their losses pertaining to the wedding. I wrote on EVERY Buy/Sell site to get as much as I possibly could for this couple. The generosity was amazing, I honestly didn't expect it. It doesn't surprise me to know that there are good people out there, people who would give up their belongings, their items, and their time to help those who are in desperate need of a miracle, to prove that everything happens for a reason. I got SO many items together, and got SO many volunteers to help get what the bride and groom needed for their wedding.
Sometimes, the love, generosity, and genuine caring person I am, surprises me. I helped perfect strangers find everything they needed to go through with their wedding, to start the first day of the rest of their lives as husband and wife. I asked for nothing in return, the couple was hurting, they had SO much to deal with, things that most people will never experience in their life time. All I truly wanted to see was this couple go forward with their wedding and start their life, they deserved happiness after a tragedy like they had suffered.
I've just contacted the couple again, as they were recently in the local paper. They've rented a new house, at a higher rent than they were paying, and they are going to need household items. I have some, we're moving, we need them gone (decluttering), I WANT to help them. I have always had the desire to help people, it's what took me into the health care field. Helping people is what I live for, making people happy is the reward.
I am very pleased with my ability to WANT to help people, almost to NEED to help people. It's incredibly rewarding, and the best reward is seeing a tear in their eyes, a smile on their face, and that look of you melting their heart with your generosity, meanwhile melting your heart seeing how much they truly appreciate everything you have done for them.
To you, I wish you the ABSOLUTE best in your future, you both deserve nothing but the best. This will make you stronger, despite how you may feel now.
In April, there was an apartment building fire, 25 minutes from my house. It was completely destroyed, over 30 people lost EVERYTHING they owned except for the clothes on their backs. When I heard about this fire, I was devastated for the families, the children, everyone. Losing items to a fire is difficult, I've been through that, but losing EVERYTHING you own, I couldn't begin to imagine how all of these families felt.
I was on a Wedding Buy/Sell site for my area, and saw that there was a bride and groom, who's wedding was just under 2 weeks away, from the day they lost everything in the fire. I had the pleasure of meeting with the couple, discussing their losses pertaining to the wedding. I wrote on EVERY Buy/Sell site to get as much as I possibly could for this couple. The generosity was amazing, I honestly didn't expect it. It doesn't surprise me to know that there are good people out there, people who would give up their belongings, their items, and their time to help those who are in desperate need of a miracle, to prove that everything happens for a reason. I got SO many items together, and got SO many volunteers to help get what the bride and groom needed for their wedding.
Sometimes, the love, generosity, and genuine caring person I am, surprises me. I helped perfect strangers find everything they needed to go through with their wedding, to start the first day of the rest of their lives as husband and wife. I asked for nothing in return, the couple was hurting, they had SO much to deal with, things that most people will never experience in their life time. All I truly wanted to see was this couple go forward with their wedding and start their life, they deserved happiness after a tragedy like they had suffered.
I've just contacted the couple again, as they were recently in the local paper. They've rented a new house, at a higher rent than they were paying, and they are going to need household items. I have some, we're moving, we need them gone (decluttering), I WANT to help them. I have always had the desire to help people, it's what took me into the health care field. Helping people is what I live for, making people happy is the reward.
I am very pleased with my ability to WANT to help people, almost to NEED to help people. It's incredibly rewarding, and the best reward is seeing a tear in their eyes, a smile on their face, and that look of you melting their heart with your generosity, meanwhile melting your heart seeing how much they truly appreciate everything you have done for them.
To you, I wish you the ABSOLUTE best in your future, you both deserve nothing but the best. This will make you stronger, despite how you may feel now.
Congratulations!
Monday 28 April 2014
I Will Not Bow
I think this post will be more of a rant than anything, with a positive spin at the end.
Well, things have been insane in our lives. I have friends who are moving on with things in their lives, months before I thought things in the friendships would change. W and I are going through a lot, experiencing a lot, things are changing for us (and fast), as well as the stress of a multitude of things. That being said, finding good friends seems to be tough, finding good friends that want to stay your friends and support you through everything, is even harder.
A few of my friends have ventured on to a part in their lives, that we've been trying to venture on to for the last 1.5 years, and we aren't getting anywhere. Once they hit this adventure, I'm no one. I'm a friend the come to simply to brag about the adventure. When talking to someone who's been on this journey for 1.5 years, in which you know what their struggles have been, what they've gone through, the disappointment they felt and still feel, you need to be sensitive, and understanding that they may not want to talk solely about your adventure, and the one they have yet to achieve.
Friends who are like this, who can't stop talking about it, are left without friends, and those who are still working on the adventure, are left with no one, no support system, no encouragement, no one, we are simply left behind. What you don't realize is that you're hurting us, you're hurting our feelings, you're discouraging us (despite probably thinking you're encouraging us), but what hurts the most is that you can't stop talking about it enough to realize that we don't want to hear it, and that you're making it so we don't want to talk to you. We don't want to confront you about it, tell you that we don't want to talk to you, or that you're stepping on boundaries or hurting our feelings, because well, you just got great news. Please take all of this into consideration before you talk to me about your adventure.
On a plus side, we have officially closed the deal on our house. We will be moving on June 27th, a little later than we expected and hoped for, but moving nonetheless. We are beyond excited and we hope that everything else in our life just falls into place. Exciting stuff for us, but hopefully a few other exciting things will pop up and fulfill our lives.
Well, things have been insane in our lives. I have friends who are moving on with things in their lives, months before I thought things in the friendships would change. W and I are going through a lot, experiencing a lot, things are changing for us (and fast), as well as the stress of a multitude of things. That being said, finding good friends seems to be tough, finding good friends that want to stay your friends and support you through everything, is even harder.
A few of my friends have ventured on to a part in their lives, that we've been trying to venture on to for the last 1.5 years, and we aren't getting anywhere. Once they hit this adventure, I'm no one. I'm a friend the come to simply to brag about the adventure. When talking to someone who's been on this journey for 1.5 years, in which you know what their struggles have been, what they've gone through, the disappointment they felt and still feel, you need to be sensitive, and understanding that they may not want to talk solely about your adventure, and the one they have yet to achieve.
Friends who are like this, who can't stop talking about it, are left without friends, and those who are still working on the adventure, are left with no one, no support system, no encouragement, no one, we are simply left behind. What you don't realize is that you're hurting us, you're hurting our feelings, you're discouraging us (despite probably thinking you're encouraging us), but what hurts the most is that you can't stop talking about it enough to realize that we don't want to hear it, and that you're making it so we don't want to talk to you. We don't want to confront you about it, tell you that we don't want to talk to you, or that you're stepping on boundaries or hurting our feelings, because well, you just got great news. Please take all of this into consideration before you talk to me about your adventure.
On a plus side, we have officially closed the deal on our house. We will be moving on June 27th, a little later than we expected and hoped for, but moving nonetheless. We are beyond excited and we hope that everything else in our life just falls into place. Exciting stuff for us, but hopefully a few other exciting things will pop up and fulfill our lives.
Tuesday 22 April 2014
Begin Again
Since I haven't written about 215 lately, the last few days definitely warrants a post! While it was so nice out this weekend, W and I have been outside getting everything cleaned up. Leaves raked, snow shovelled off of the deck so the deck can dry off, that kind of stuff. Plus detailing our two personal vehicles and W's work truck!
While outside yesterday, cleaning my SUV, our neighbour (215) was outside, and started shovelling the snow from his yard, into our yard... Yes, just as it sounds, being petty and trying to get us to give a reaction. I noticed he was shovelling the snow onto our yard, while I was detailing the car, and Wade came over, to "see" how cleaning the car was going, and 215 gave W a look, the kind of look that would piss any other person off, given what 215 has done to us.
This morning, I heard shovelling so I looked outside, and saw that he was doing it all again. Since the dog pen is completely swamped in right now, so we've put out a dog run in the yard, and have to take Sadie out and tie her to the line to go to the washroom and such. I took the dogs out for their morning fresh air and pee break, while 215 was outside shovelling more snow onto our yard, Dacia went straight for his area and started barking at him, telling him to get off of our yard! I grabbed my headphones and sat outside with the dogs, as Dacia doesn't have to be on a leash, so I just sit outside and make sure she doesn't wander off to where she shouldn't be. Meanwhile, he continues to shovel snow on our lawn, and when he's done he grabs his shovels, and shoots me a creepy "Whatcha gonna do about it?" stare, as he walks around into his yard. Gives off a major creepy vibe, and I greatly dislike it...
While outside yesterday, cleaning my SUV, our neighbour (215) was outside, and started shovelling the snow from his yard, into our yard... Yes, just as it sounds, being petty and trying to get us to give a reaction. I noticed he was shovelling the snow onto our yard, while I was detailing the car, and Wade came over, to "see" how cleaning the car was going, and 215 gave W a look, the kind of look that would piss any other person off, given what 215 has done to us.
This morning, I heard shovelling so I looked outside, and saw that he was doing it all again. Since the dog pen is completely swamped in right now, so we've put out a dog run in the yard, and have to take Sadie out and tie her to the line to go to the washroom and such. I took the dogs out for their morning fresh air and pee break, while 215 was outside shovelling more snow onto our yard, Dacia went straight for his area and started barking at him, telling him to get off of our yard! I grabbed my headphones and sat outside with the dogs, as Dacia doesn't have to be on a leash, so I just sit outside and make sure she doesn't wander off to where she shouldn't be. Meanwhile, he continues to shovel snow on our lawn, and when he's done he grabs his shovels, and shoots me a creepy "Whatcha gonna do about it?" stare, as he walks around into his yard. Gives off a major creepy vibe, and I greatly dislike it...
Thursday 10 April 2014
Long Hot Summer
Well, life is about to get a whole lot crazier! We SOLD our house, last weekend after only 8 days on the market.
We've started looking at houses now, I think it's finally starting to sink in that we did sell our house in just 8 short days on the market! Before we purchased it, it had been on the market for one full year, so to see it sell in just 8 days, is simply astonishing! We saw a house on Tuesday but didn't really like it! I can't wait to view more houses tonight, 6 in total! We have a good budget to work with too, which makes looking and shopping that much easier and better!
Everything else is going good in our lives. We've got to finish the soffit and fascia on the roof this weekend, we finished half of it last weekend and the last half will be this weekend! It's getting so nice out here, and the snow is melting, the yard is turning into mush! It sucks that everything is so wet, and flooding will be an issue for so many people, but it's what happens with spring and the snow melting.
We've gotten our truck up and running too! It was parked throughout the winter because Wade has a work truck and I have my SUV, but with needing to do dump runs and moving, we kind of need it up and going so we can use it and everything!
We're excited to close this chapter of our life, and move on to the next chapter, it's going to be an amazing one!
We've started looking at houses now, I think it's finally starting to sink in that we did sell our house in just 8 short days on the market! Before we purchased it, it had been on the market for one full year, so to see it sell in just 8 days, is simply astonishing! We saw a house on Tuesday but didn't really like it! I can't wait to view more houses tonight, 6 in total! We have a good budget to work with too, which makes looking and shopping that much easier and better!
Everything else is going good in our lives. We've got to finish the soffit and fascia on the roof this weekend, we finished half of it last weekend and the last half will be this weekend! It's getting so nice out here, and the snow is melting, the yard is turning into mush! It sucks that everything is so wet, and flooding will be an issue for so many people, but it's what happens with spring and the snow melting.
We've gotten our truck up and running too! It was parked throughout the winter because Wade has a work truck and I have my SUV, but with needing to do dump runs and moving, we kind of need it up and going so we can use it and everything!
We're excited to close this chapter of our life, and move on to the next chapter, it's going to be an amazing one!
Tuesday 1 April 2014
Louder
Well, things have been insanely busy in our lives. Weekend after weekend has been filled with house stuff. Painting, siliconing, trimming, more painting, more painting, cleaning, packing, changing electrical outlets and light switches. We have officially listed our house. Things have gotten very insane here. We have our first viewing today, and this lady is VERY interested in the house :) YAY us!!
Things are starting to get crazy in our lives. It's been snowing the last few days, and cold again too. We haven't been able to do anything really, besides house stuff, and our standard every day life. Things are looking up and changing and I'm truly hoping that April is going to be an incredible month. Listing, viewings, and maybe selling our house, among everything else that's been going on in our life.
Our pets are going stir-crazy because it's gotten cold again and they can't go outside. They're basically little humans with cabin fever and the need/desire to go outside! I cannot wait for it to be spring, and go biking and walking and such with my dogs!
Things are starting to get crazy in our lives. It's been snowing the last few days, and cold again too. We haven't been able to do anything really, besides house stuff, and our standard every day life. Things are looking up and changing and I'm truly hoping that April is going to be an incredible month. Listing, viewings, and maybe selling our house, among everything else that's been going on in our life.
Our pets are going stir-crazy because it's gotten cold again and they can't go outside. They're basically little humans with cabin fever and the need/desire to go outside! I cannot wait for it to be spring, and go biking and walking and such with my dogs!
Monday 20 January 2014
30 Things - What Animal?!?
If You Were An Animal, What Would You Be And Why?
This is a really tough one. I like a variety of animals, and most animals are amazing and have their own special qualities. I guess, the decision comes down to, would I like to be in a wet environment (lakes or oceans), a dry environment (desert), or a snowy, swampy, and sometimes warm environment (Canada). Do I want to be able to fly, swim, or just have 4 legs and be furry? A decision like this has so many possibilities and so many things to take into consideration.
I think I would like to be something with spots or stripes, like a tiger or a leopard. They are beautiful animals, not to mention fast. Plus they're of the cat species, and we all know that I love my kitten! They truly are beautiful creatures, their spots/stripes, colours, whiskers, and the way they are.
This is a really tough one. I like a variety of animals, and most animals are amazing and have their own special qualities. I guess, the decision comes down to, would I like to be in a wet environment (lakes or oceans), a dry environment (desert), or a snowy, swampy, and sometimes warm environment (Canada). Do I want to be able to fly, swim, or just have 4 legs and be furry? A decision like this has so many possibilities and so many things to take into consideration.
I think I would like to be something with spots or stripes, like a tiger or a leopard. They are beautiful animals, not to mention fast. Plus they're of the cat species, and we all know that I love my kitten! They truly are beautiful creatures, their spots/stripes, colours, whiskers, and the way they are.
Even The Stars Fall For You
This past week and weekend were very interesting and amazing, to say the least!
Wednesday started with a dentist appointment to have some impressions taken of my teeth to be fitted for a new night guard. (Expensive too, to say the least) Anyways, my new dentist (the old one has moved out of province) had asked if I have ever thought of having my tongue-tie, snipped, to say the least. It had been thought of, but I was told on various occasions that it may cause issues with my speech, and I may have to learn how to talk all over again, which I wasn't going through at 14 years old. Needless to say, I had the procedure done, 10 needles of freezing later, as I metabolized the first two (this is all they give normal people), within 15 minutes, so I froze and unfroze fast! Lots of needles to keep my mouth frozen for the duration of the procedure, in which some sort of laser tool was used to cut and cauterize my tongue and the tissue under it, that leads up to my gums. When the freezing came out, it wasn't good. It hurts, it was gross, and I was drooling everywhere because when you have a mouth injury or surgery, your mouth creates extra saliva to help heal your mouth. (I still drool and spit everywhere due to excess saliva and we're 5 days past surgery) The reason for having this procedure done is that the tongue tie was pulling on the gums behind my front teeth, exposing more tooth than they should. I did talk with a lisp for the few days as my tongue was so swollen...Very entertaining for my friends!!
Friday we had a concert to go to with my Aunt and Uncle! It was amazing, Brett Eltredge was fantastic, Little Big Town sounded amazing live, and of course KEITH URBAN was just a drool worthy hunk of a concert. The whole thing was almost 5 hours long, the longest concert I have ever been to. I got lots of photos, and sang every song, and when my Uncle asked me how old Keith Urban was, I even knew that!! I have a bit of an obsession, some would say. I call it a "Good Taste In Music".
Here is "Stupid Boy - Keith Urban"
Saturday was my actual Birthday! 24 years old. I love that when you're in your 20's, everyone feels the need to ask you if you feel old! My response to this question, (assuming said person is older than me, or is my parent) "I don't know, does it make you feel old that your daughter is 24??" Most responses are "Um, ya...........I guess it does" Don't ask me and I won't ask you :) I was blessed with about 75 Birthday texts, phone calls, and posts on Facebook. There are some amazing people out there, and I would like to THANK every single person who wished me a HAPPY BIRTHDAY! It really was great. My Uncle BBQ'd a yummy roast for dinner, with steamed veggies and a delicious sauce, and to follow a yummy cake, in which Wade was in on! It was fantastic, I really enjoyed our weekend away from home, despite how much my mouth hurt!
Yesterday, we came home and went Laser Tagging with some friends and my little cousin! That was great too, if there hadn't been a grown man in there shooting people in the eyes with the laser! What a dink! I was so mad, 5-6 times it happened to me, and it also happened to my friends! How can you be so ignorant and rude at something that is supposed to be fun! We then went out for a late lunch/early dinner with two friends, and headed home to see our pups! Oh how I missed the pups little faces :)
Wednesday started with a dentist appointment to have some impressions taken of my teeth to be fitted for a new night guard. (Expensive too, to say the least) Anyways, my new dentist (the old one has moved out of province) had asked if I have ever thought of having my tongue-tie, snipped, to say the least. It had been thought of, but I was told on various occasions that it may cause issues with my speech, and I may have to learn how to talk all over again, which I wasn't going through at 14 years old. Needless to say, I had the procedure done, 10 needles of freezing later, as I metabolized the first two (this is all they give normal people), within 15 minutes, so I froze and unfroze fast! Lots of needles to keep my mouth frozen for the duration of the procedure, in which some sort of laser tool was used to cut and cauterize my tongue and the tissue under it, that leads up to my gums. When the freezing came out, it wasn't good. It hurts, it was gross, and I was drooling everywhere because when you have a mouth injury or surgery, your mouth creates extra saliva to help heal your mouth. (I still drool and spit everywhere due to excess saliva and we're 5 days past surgery) The reason for having this procedure done is that the tongue tie was pulling on the gums behind my front teeth, exposing more tooth than they should. I did talk with a lisp for the few days as my tongue was so swollen...Very entertaining for my friends!!
Friday we had a concert to go to with my Aunt and Uncle! It was amazing, Brett Eltredge was fantastic, Little Big Town sounded amazing live, and of course KEITH URBAN was just a drool worthy hunk of a concert. The whole thing was almost 5 hours long, the longest concert I have ever been to. I got lots of photos, and sang every song, and when my Uncle asked me how old Keith Urban was, I even knew that!! I have a bit of an obsession, some would say. I call it a "Good Taste In Music".
Here is "Stupid Boy - Keith Urban"
Saturday was my actual Birthday! 24 years old. I love that when you're in your 20's, everyone feels the need to ask you if you feel old! My response to this question, (assuming said person is older than me, or is my parent) "I don't know, does it make you feel old that your daughter is 24??" Most responses are "Um, ya...........I guess it does" Don't ask me and I won't ask you :) I was blessed with about 75 Birthday texts, phone calls, and posts on Facebook. There are some amazing people out there, and I would like to THANK every single person who wished me a HAPPY BIRTHDAY! It really was great. My Uncle BBQ'd a yummy roast for dinner, with steamed veggies and a delicious sauce, and to follow a yummy cake, in which Wade was in on! It was fantastic, I really enjoyed our weekend away from home, despite how much my mouth hurt!
Yesterday, we came home and went Laser Tagging with some friends and my little cousin! That was great too, if there hadn't been a grown man in there shooting people in the eyes with the laser! What a dink! I was so mad, 5-6 times it happened to me, and it also happened to my friends! How can you be so ignorant and rude at something that is supposed to be fun! We then went out for a late lunch/early dinner with two friends, and headed home to see our pups! Oh how I missed the pups little faces :)
Hope everyone has a great week!
Wednesday 8 January 2014
Say Something...
I've been seeing so many "inspirational" quotes going around on Facebook, and in light of my friends blog post the other day, it is time to say good-bye to a few people, to rid my life of the negativity, and annoyance.
There is a big difference in "distancing" yourself with a friend, or shall I say "phasing" them out of your life and down right cutting them out of your life. I have been through a fair amount in my short lifetime. I've had childhood friends who've stabbed me in the back, to turn around and apologize to me so that I accept them back into my life, which I generally did, for them to turn around and cut me out of their lives, or phase me out. This is my farewell to the past, to the negativity, annoyance, and to the past difficulties and life experiences I've had.
Through everything I've been through, I've learned who my real "friends" are, and those who aren't, I have gotten rid of (as a manner of speaking), they're out of my life.
The "inspirational" quote, should it be called that, read: "You can't start the next chapter of your life if you keep re-reading the last one." In my life, I have found this extremely fitting to SO many struggles, friendships, relationships, and life experiences that I have encountered. Everything can change in an instant, including all of the previously stated.
I am one of those people who can easily erase memories. It's sad, not so much that I can erase 6 years of my life, and forget those people who were in it, but I erase the good with the bad. The only thing I take out of those years is my strength, both emotionally and physically, despite what went on in those times. For those of you who don't know me, or know what I have gone through, you won't understand. I'm the person who will get rid of everything one individual gave me, train myself to forget the good, the bad, the great, and the terrible. I would say that the way I do this, the way I erase things or "forget" things, is my way of coping with what happened, but it's not. It's my way of saying good-bye, of saying that chapter is closed, that I never want to open and re-read that chapter again. For me, it's like writing a letter to each individual and burning it, it's my closure. It's my way, it's what makes me comfortable and happy with what is going on in my current life. I can't dwell on the past, I can't dwell on my fallen friendships, relationships, life experiences, or struggles. I would like to say that I forgive and forget, but I don't forgive, I move on, I forget and erase. Delete, if you will.
I've been told that I am the strongest person that people have met, that I take each thing with a grain of sand, and handle it or take care of it. But people don't know what I do with what hurts me, makes me sad, devastates me, or upsets me. I have a different train of thought than most people, I don't give up on anything, unless I absolutely must, I don't express my feelings to people unless things get so built up that I just can't stand it, in which I have a melt down about. I can hold things in for months, I can act like my life is "normal" or "perfect". It takes a lot to wear me down and break me open.
Just know, that whatever I do, however I react, I don't give up, I let go and erase if it's something I don't want in my life, or I push forward to where I want to be and how I want to be. I will accomplish the things I set my mind to, I don't give up that easily. Life has thrown me so many curve balls, that most people wouldn't know what to do with. When you take them at stride, and close each chapter in life as it needs to be closed, you get where you want to be and where you need to me.
There is a big difference in "distancing" yourself with a friend, or shall I say "phasing" them out of your life and down right cutting them out of your life. I have been through a fair amount in my short lifetime. I've had childhood friends who've stabbed me in the back, to turn around and apologize to me so that I accept them back into my life, which I generally did, for them to turn around and cut me out of their lives, or phase me out. This is my farewell to the past, to the negativity, annoyance, and to the past difficulties and life experiences I've had.
Through everything I've been through, I've learned who my real "friends" are, and those who aren't, I have gotten rid of (as a manner of speaking), they're out of my life.
The "inspirational" quote, should it be called that, read: "You can't start the next chapter of your life if you keep re-reading the last one." In my life, I have found this extremely fitting to SO many struggles, friendships, relationships, and life experiences that I have encountered. Everything can change in an instant, including all of the previously stated.
I am one of those people who can easily erase memories. It's sad, not so much that I can erase 6 years of my life, and forget those people who were in it, but I erase the good with the bad. The only thing I take out of those years is my strength, both emotionally and physically, despite what went on in those times. For those of you who don't know me, or know what I have gone through, you won't understand. I'm the person who will get rid of everything one individual gave me, train myself to forget the good, the bad, the great, and the terrible. I would say that the way I do this, the way I erase things or "forget" things, is my way of coping with what happened, but it's not. It's my way of saying good-bye, of saying that chapter is closed, that I never want to open and re-read that chapter again. For me, it's like writing a letter to each individual and burning it, it's my closure. It's my way, it's what makes me comfortable and happy with what is going on in my current life. I can't dwell on the past, I can't dwell on my fallen friendships, relationships, life experiences, or struggles. I would like to say that I forgive and forget, but I don't forgive, I move on, I forget and erase. Delete, if you will.
I've been told that I am the strongest person that people have met, that I take each thing with a grain of sand, and handle it or take care of it. But people don't know what I do with what hurts me, makes me sad, devastates me, or upsets me. I have a different train of thought than most people, I don't give up on anything, unless I absolutely must, I don't express my feelings to people unless things get so built up that I just can't stand it, in which I have a melt down about. I can hold things in for months, I can act like my life is "normal" or "perfect". It takes a lot to wear me down and break me open.
Just know, that whatever I do, however I react, I don't give up, I let go and erase if it's something I don't want in my life, or I push forward to where I want to be and how I want to be. I will accomplish the things I set my mind to, I don't give up that easily. Life has thrown me so many curve balls, that most people wouldn't know what to do with. When you take them at stride, and close each chapter in life as it needs to be closed, you get where you want to be and where you need to me.
Anywhere With You
2014 is shaping up to be a fairly good year and it's only just begun! I've enrolled in a Bridal Consultant program online, and have launched my website and Facebook page. I'm gaining a few clients, and some companies who want to work with me for flowers and such for weddings that I may have. It's shaping up to be great!
I currently have two weddings to help plan, and 3 day of coordinations, this isn't including the two day of coordinations that come with the weddings. I'm hoping that this turns out to be the best decision I've made yet. It's something I can do under almost any circumstance as well, and I truly believe it will be great for my health.
Wade and I have started our workout regime, and are hoping to tone up and lose a bit of weight, gain a bit of muscle. January is going to be a great month over all because it's my birthday, we have a Keith Urban concert, we're spending the weekend with my Aunt and Uncle. I truly cannot wait to see what this year has to bring to Wade and I.
Back to Wedding Planning, I can't wait for it to take off, and for me to be able to potentially start my own little business, and maybe branch out a little! Not going to lie, that would be like a dream come true. I really cannot wait to see what else 2014 has to bring us!
I currently have two weddings to help plan, and 3 day of coordinations, this isn't including the two day of coordinations that come with the weddings. I'm hoping that this turns out to be the best decision I've made yet. It's something I can do under almost any circumstance as well, and I truly believe it will be great for my health.
Wade and I have started our workout regime, and are hoping to tone up and lose a bit of weight, gain a bit of muscle. January is going to be a great month over all because it's my birthday, we have a Keith Urban concert, we're spending the weekend with my Aunt and Uncle. I truly cannot wait to see what this year has to bring to Wade and I.
Back to Wedding Planning, I can't wait for it to take off, and for me to be able to potentially start my own little business, and maybe branch out a little! Not going to lie, that would be like a dream come true. I really cannot wait to see what else 2014 has to bring us!
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